For the first morning in several months I actually feel like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. Yesterday my doctor and I decided it would be better if I stopped taking Lexapro and began taking Pristiq, and I'm amazed at how better I feel already just not taking Lexapro. One of the main reasons I becoming irritated with Lexapro were the vivid dreams. Just crazy dreams that were so vivid I often awoke feeling more tired, sluggish, and plain depressed. It was as if the dreams took so much energy that I had never slept. And I felt zombie-fied.
It was so nice waking up from a vague dream and actually feeling rested. The other issue with Lexapro was how it affected my OCD. I was supposed to have been put on Lexapro to help what little depression I was having, but also to stop the panic attacks and anxiety I was having along with aid my OCD issues. And it worked..depression gone..most panic attacks gone..OCD WORSE. And its gotten progressively worse the past few weeks. So now I'm on Pristiq to help improve both my OCD and anxiety/depression. But since Pristiq isn't FDA approved in treating OCD at the very least I should be happier. :p We shall see how this all turns out, but so far so good. I know its probably too soon to say I feel better from the Pristiq, but I do feel better from not taking the Lexapro for sure.
Hmm..so that may have been too much info., but it has been weighing on my mind. Very few people seem to understand what I go through with OCD, so its nice to at least get it out on my blog.
In other news..so excited about Nick arriving Monday! I have so much cleaning to do though! I feel like I have to strip my office, bedroom, and bathroom down and make it super clean and organized. I guess I could use the excuse of Spring cleaning since Nick does not like me to make such a fuss over him. But with excitement also brings fear. I'm afraid of once again being separated. I'm afraid of actually having to get my life together, and I'm afraid of beginning my career in the medical field. It would appear the lately excitement and fear run my life.
And in knitting news..I have taken a short break from my Autumn scarf. I attempted to make a check cover, but did not cast on enough, so I either need to start over or turn what I do have into something else. And I'm considering making cast-on videos for my friend who is having troubles doing so and is getting frustrated over it. I need to learn a simpler cast-on method for her.
And in the Pagan world..well I feel spiritual but haven't been acting it...but I have had the best intentions.
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