Well, its official, I'm finished with my second quarter of nursing school as of today, or rather yesterday since its after midnight now. My grades are 77 and 80 in Pharmacology and Med/Surg respectively. I feel like I could have done much better, but I was so lazy this quarter. Now I have approximately 10 days to rest up before third quarter begins, and I'm honestly more nervous than excited. Nervous because I don't want to be separated from my friends, and because I barely had enough "uumph" to get through this quarter successfully. And I don't want to be "alone" at clinicals. I really wish they didn't mix us up like this. And I have yet to get my schedule.
Regardless, I passed one more hump. Two more quarters then I can take the NCLEX-PN. Then I can start on the path to RN. I just wish I didn't have to keep reminding myself WHY I'm doing this, and if the reason is good enough. Most of the time it is, but when I'm so exhausted I can't keep my eyes open, those reasons become less and less important.
Though today I was successful, one of my friends were not. I couldn't help feeling more sympathy for them, and guilt for passing than I did proud of my success. Maybe I should give myself more credit, but I just don't have that in me right now. Because I could have done better, for one, and because my friend is going down a path that I wouldn't be able to handle.
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